Changing my job to house wrecker?
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Battling with the sales quota that my compnay is suppose to hit. Even if i do it without commission, i just hope that we can hit the quota that was set for ys, 1.2million, yeah, you get it right, 1.2million.
not too far off and we are just at the edge of hitting it. evey single day someone will come to me 'ger, how much have to close today' at times i wonder, why the hell so many ppl register under this ISP? Wat ends on 10 March and instead of seeing blood, my bosses given us a stock of flower each which now is still look beautiful and the person say can last for 3 weeks. i guess when it start to wither, the war will be just ended also. :) so it keeps us ongoign for this period
hm....what is my topic about then. i realise back in 2006, a ex engineer who is already enage tried to tackle me and i nearly get it off with it. however, last min i manage to pull myself back, coping well beign just frens. we did have a little kiss just once. 2007,nothing much have happen as i do have a stable but yet not lasting relationship. but early this year, one of my ex sales coll keep msning me askign me to go out and date with him wheerby he is married with a kid. what the hell?! just as when i m rejecting him all the way, another come in, married without kid tellign me how much he actually likes me and really wanted to be with me to keep me accompany.
what the hell is that goign on? i believe in karma and do i look like a family wrecker to you guys? i m still single and moving on pretty well. i want a future husband and not other ppl husband. this makes me recall that back in 17, i fell in love with htis guy with a gf but i decide to stop seeing him. but the time we contacted back when i am 20, he is married with a daughter and we end up together for couple of months and this makes me feel very bad coz i knw i m not suppose to and i stop it without even thinking further.
with all these in mind, i think it add on to the fear of me getting married coz nothing is lasting. even married guys tried to get a taste of bite outside. i guess i need to change my way of approaching ppl. stop alll nosense....