Lub results
Thursday, September 27, 2007
me: i am a person that can easliy fall in love
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The number of red roses represents how much you give in a relationship, while the number of white represents what you expect in return. For example, if you chose 18 red and 2 white, you give 90 and expect 10 return.
me: excpet a lot of retun with little giving (dun think so lei. i always give all out and nothign retuns -.-)
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This question represents your attitude towards handling relationship problems. If you asked the family member to get your significant other, then you like to avoid problems and hope that they will solve themselves. If you went to get them yourself, then you are a more direct person and like to work out problems immediately.
me: direct person so dun hide anything from me...
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The placement of roses determines how much you like to see your boy/girlfriend. Placing them on the bed means you like to see them a lot, while placing them on the windowsill means that you are alright with not seeing them as much.
me: can dun c my boyfriend often but dun think true lei...i wanna c him soon. :(
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This representative of your attitude towards their personality. If you find him/her asleep, you love your boy/girlfriend the way he/she is. If you find him/her awake, you expect him/her to change for you.
me: yeah...i love him the way he is. nothing needs to be change except for some thhings
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The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone. If you chose the short road, you fall out of love easily. If you chose the longer one, you will tend to stay in love for a long time.
me: long route so i m a person that can stay in love for long long time... :)
Whats yours?
Lub Test~
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
my choice - short path to see my love one sooner
On the way you see 2 rose bushes, One is full of red roses, the other full of white. You decide to pick 20 roses for your boy/girlfriend, of any color combination. What number of white and red do you pick? (you can pick all of one or any combination of the two)
my choice - 17 white and 3 red
You finally get to the house. A family member answers the doors. You can have them get your boy/girlfriend or go get them yourself. Which do you do?
my choice - myself
You go up to your boy/girlfriend's room, but nobody is there. You decide to leave the roses. Do you leave them by the windowsill or on the bed?
my choice - windowsill
Later, it's time for bed, You and your boy/girlfriend go to sleep in separate rooms. In the morning when it's time to wake up you go in his/her room and check on him/her. When you arrive, is he/she awake or asleep?
my choice - sleeping (which is always is :P)
Now it's time to go back home. Do you take the short, plain road or the longer, more interesting road?
my choice - longer to enjoy the sight
the weekend
Monday, September 17, 2007
my boss gave me her wedding card this morning. so scary sia...first thing in the morning at my desk is a red bomb.
she wrote: Joanne & partner.....
then i told her:'boss, i no partner' she look a bit shock but did not highlight anything. later part in the moon, she ask me :' joanne, y no partner' then i say :'partner not in singapore until chirstmas'
hai....sad huh....attend wedding alone. some more have to wrap big big hong bao... >.<
anyway, she have a child and this child is pri one i think. the sad part is eva was out from prison due to drug procession a year ago. she told me that she nv wanted to be in there ever. thats good. the thing is her child is taken care by the 'husband' mother and the 'husband' have another wife with another child. typical messy family aint it? She have a lot of guys after she is out and she can have mutiple guys as her bf at one time. this let me think of 'how are you goign to handle diff guys at a shot?' i mean in terms of time or rather, your body...er.... din wanna go further. there is this guy, super good to her. and guess what she does? this guy is doing some 'illegal's stuff and was inprison for 6 months. he left her 30k in good hands of hers and guess what, when he is out, he left without a penny but s sorry and her. She didnt leave him, instead, she say sorry to him and will try to return him. 30k lei...all along after her imprisonment, she have been depending on diff guys to give her money.
This makes me wonder, why does she have to depend on guys? you have study sec before and english is not a diff language to be spoken. even broken english is still english. a promotion doesnt require fluent english, a reception doest require, a waitress as well. why the hell she doesnt go to work and get herself a life? is she goign to depend on a guy forever?
Sat was a boring day. i no longer look forward to weekends anymore. >.<
went to safra agian after that. but suddenly i rem i have dragonbaot the next day coz my captian sms me. so i quickly ask my friend if he is driving coz so far i trust his driving skill and not other team mates. :P
went home at 1+ shower and hit the sack. my darling call me at 5 plus chat a while and continue my dreams. ant rem my dreams liao. haha... but i knw something sweeet. maybe i dream that he come back or something?
6.30am, sunday morning, alarm clock ring, suppose to get change to dragonboat. but guess what, it was raining and it is cool and.... off the bed i go after smsing my friend 'its raining, my bed is calling, good nite'. haha...i woke up early acutally...ard 8+. hehe...do some cleaning of work at home, head to my god sister place. i aint as close to my god daugters le, maybe becoz they grow up and no longer play those cooking stuff. i m gettign old, i dun play with them anymore.
Was chattign with my sister and i ask about another 'sister' of mine. that 'sister' is the best you can ever find coz she actually call my mum and tell my mum that i was smokign when i was 15. good 'sister' hor? all becoz her bf at that time say 'i actaully wanted to xian jaonne one, but too bad she dun wan me' WTH? anyway, that 'sister' was pregnant and she dun even bother to tell us. she dun even visit my sister anymore. some kind of sister? hai....then we chat about another feidn of ours call eva.
bit of history: Eva was 17 and i was 16 when i first know her. she was just out from girls home at that time. ard 17, her bf at that time love me instead of her so break off with her becoz of me. i still dunno they are still togtheer when i was with him. after i knw, i broke off with him immdiately. thereafter, they patch and 2 months after they patch, Eva was pregnant. :P
anyway, she have a child and this child is pri one i think. the sad part is eva was out from prison due to drug procession a year ago. she told me that she nv wanted to be in there ever. thats good. the thing is her child is taken care by the 'husband' mother and the 'husband' have another wife with another child. typical messy family aint it? She have a lot of guys after she is out and she can have mutiple guys as her bf at one time. this let me think of 'how are you goign to handle diff guys at a shot?' i mean in terms of time or rather, your body...er.... din wanna go further. there is this guy, super good to her. and guess what she does? this guy is doing some 'illegal's stuff and was inprison for 6 months. he left her 30k in good hands of hers and guess what, when he is out, he left without a penny but s sorry and her. She didnt leave him, instead, she say sorry to him and will try to return him. 30k lei...all along after her imprisonment, she have been depending on diff guys to give her money.
This makes me wonder, why does she have to depend on guys? you have study sec before and english is not a diff language to be spoken. even broken english is still english. a promotion doesnt require fluent english, a reception doest require, a waitress as well. why the hell she doesnt go to work and get herself a life? is she goign to depend on a guy forever?
3rd month anni
Sunday, September 16, 2007
called me last nite saying that he will nto call me as often anymore. actually now the everyday thing is to wait for his call. hm....since hew cant n he have to start wokring, then i think i will have to slowly wait for him to be back.
i will still drop by his place even though some find it stupid to do it. but still i m willing to. werid huh....
things arent good at my work place and engineer started to get a little werid. dunno y all my job seems to have problem. not i dun have a proper management on customer but seems that they are not reporting to me the jobs that is having problem.
everyday i m on autopoilt mode. work home work home. think i should really go out with friends from now on. he will only call me on weekends.
Happy 3rd month anni and take care
Answer to my discomfort
Friday, September 14, 2007
Lady in PMS, stay away!
>.<
pain....pain....just vomitted. think i should go for ultra sound soon. i m scare..anyone acc me?
Things to do
brush up selling skills
always kill my rival before they kill me
save up enough to go hong kong
go on diet (for my good sake. :P)
cut my smoking habit
dun quarrel with bf
leanr how to cook a complete meal(i only know how to fry egg, vege, bee hoon noodles, marcoroni, fish ball soup, porridge, rice)
learn some desert thingy (my bf loves deserts)
clear my bills
change my workign attire
i wan my darling huggies
i is
i is not happy
11th day
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Last fri meet up with the gers for steamboat dinner. Ting, Zoe, huirong, jiayan, grace, me. after that we head to safra. had a few games and huirong went home coz she has to work. zoe went home after that, think becoz of the drinks we had + dinner make us pretty full. Thereafter i took a cab home and reach home ard 3.30am i think. had a bath, sleep and woke up at 9am to have a jog. after that, went to catch some sleep before goign to bukit merah. something happen and i guess i really have to thank huirong for saving me. :)
took a bus to queens after that to meet up with my fren jocelyn as she will be celebrating her 2* bday. :) had a few drinks and head home at 1am. woke up 7.50am coz i have dragonboat training. i guess the weekend is not about drinking only. time to stop drinking le. just when i tot i cant stop drinking, this fri i have a hens nite for my coll. she name the list and we haev to attend. and yes, i m one of them. i tot that i can dun go but i guess not. i tot i can be a little good ger and
head home on fri since i m meeting grace for moive on thurs and sat. i guess i m wrong. another busy weekend for me.
i m a little moody now coz i just weep a little.
7 days = 7 years
Friday, September 07, 2007
i just post 'A True Boyfriend' in friendster and there is this note:
If you do repost this in the next four
minutes the one you love or like will :
1) Call you
2) Kiss you
3) Love you
4) Text you
5) Message you on friendster
i tot, he is not ard, it impossible to do anything above and he is 3 hours later than us which means its only 8.30am, so it makes it even more diff for him to call me. but just when i was about to post it, he just called me....HE CALLED ME!!~~ i m so happy. hehe..this message is for real, please re-post it friends.
these few days my bf have been calling me and i m really happy. even though it is still 7 days from his departure and i still haev long way to go and i still weep in showers and night, but i think i m slowly improving. when my work cock up, all i wish that is he is there just for me but he is not and i cannot blame him coz i knw he have to work.
hope that in future i no need to wrk and wait for him to give me money can le. hehe...
back to crazy life
Monday, September 03, 2007
just doen with my report and was about to off my PC. i realise i sign in here already and decides to share...i hit the second target for August. damn happy..if nothing goes wrong, i will be a rich ger at Nov. :P
Time to head home and prepare meeting tml. have to do reading up etc... sianz...
weekend passings so slowly
1 sep 10.30am, send him off and now i m still weeping when i recall the moment. Went to Tamp with Elaine(junliang gf) and we chatted over lunch and guess what, its only 2pm and we seems to be together for quite some time. but the fact that its only 4 hours. head home and start weeping below my place coz whenever he send me home, he will stop at only one spot. allthe way up to level 14. i start crying outside my house. :(
my mum still can laugh at me. i really cant stand staying at home coz every spot seems that i am dying that he is ard. so i decide to meet up with missy.
the empty feeling which everyone will never ever understand. imgaine you have a person who you know he will always be ard, always sms you, always talk to you and out of sudden, everything gone for 4 months. it aint going to be easy at all. i tot that i woudl have freedom but it turns out that it is boredom.
Was at boilers last fri and i realise i no longer like to club ard anymore. i was theer for 4 hours but seems that i m not enjoying. am i getting older or am i tonning down. i dun really like to drink now and i would rather drink some green tea than to drink martell. whats wrong with me?
i would go to moive than disco, i would rather watch tv than go ktv. what the hell is it happeing? or is it just for a while?
countign down 120 days