Monday, March 29, 2004
Date:29032004 Time: 9.55am tired day...i tried my best to b here on time...but i m still late..haha...so tired.hm...got a nice wkend..but fri was not really happy day. went to devils...n my bf went to rush...jasmine say that we very powerful...can cheong diff places..haiz..wat to do???bf want accompany his best friend..who m i to him???anyway...Devils was sux that day....i nearly die bcoz of my shortness...haha...went home early..sat when out wif grace again...and this time, my bf accompany mi go. we go for a RA movie...hm....not exciting...went fir KTV after that...wha..bo hua...more x than we go MS.heehee..god..i m still so tired...o ya...Ivan, dont get angry with Kat anymore..if she refuse to pay she will not let u find her.too bad u din eat her that time...hahhah....if nt at least u get back something. hahhah...goo dluck to mi...i better log off before my boss come back
Blurgal02 posted @ 9:50 AM |
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Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Date:24032004 Time:0915 hm..boss still not in...so can slowly write my blog..lucky yesterday i din meet grace n her frens for movie..if not, i guess, i m the onli extra there. i went home to clean my cage n went for dinner at yishun with my bf. got a new pants from gidano...ha..29 only..so cheap. bt he din help mi c if i m nice in that. he was outside talking to sean instead. haiz....no chioce...no ya...i took my boss pic to let sean c....ask him he wan meet..he says anything...does it means he is interested in my boss??hahah..i dunno...o..before i forget...Marc, please take care urself..i know its diffcult to put down a 1yr 7 mth relationship..bt face the turth..ur gal run away with other guys le...nt u r not handsome...is she havent grwon up yet..dun worry..u will find better one. O...sorry grace...i know i m suppose to meet u for dinner tonite.but i m afraid that my mum will strave herself buy not buying dinner. so i have to accompany her to eat...anyway..happy cheonging to Zouk....i know u going there tonite...if nthigs goes wrong.hm.i must go on diet...i think i dun look good in the clothes i like...I MUST DIET>>....well thats all at the monet. having meeting later...shipment arriving..have to pack all those stupid stock...sianz** wkend soon..hm...where should i cheong this fri? Devils???hm...have to ask grace...maybe go for a couple of drinks with jiayan....or should i organgize a KTV session??/hm...good idea...dunno jiayan will b online soon or nt....think my boss coming soon...cya....
Blurgal02 posted @ 9:08 AM |
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Date:22032004 Time: 1114 Hm....my boss sitting in the office...hahah...i write this blog sliently...i went velvent wif grace last sat...that was a shocking time of my life...1st time cheong wif rich guyz...hm...all thanks to grace huh....nt a bad expenice...bt cannnot always go..will get addicted one...heehee...went shopping at bugis last sun...heehee..finally...shopping wif my bf le...he look a bit sianz..bt haiz...anything...o ya..went for a movie as well....the eye 2..nt really nice n scary...bt better than 20 30 40..heehee...meet with my bf last nite for coffee......chat quite a lot...hm..i have a sudden thought of study immediately...any sch wan to take mi in?haiz...so boring...life seems more n more meaningless..so far still ok with my bf....he ask mi...do i still love him..of coz i do..if nt....y would i insist?actually there is something i wanted to tell him...wel..i think i will tell him here...dear roy..u say sean ask y i din join u all anymore...ur reply is i give u more time to spend with them..i just wan to tell u that nt i wanted to give...i m being force!well..no matter u will be angry or u will start to doubt my love....all i want to tell u is i really love u..but things are seems nt rite at all....anyway..thats what i wan to tell u. o ya...i hope grace is fine...after so many interviews..hope u can get a job fast n nt cashless when my bday..heehee...all the best to my best fren jocelyn as well....she just gt a job as HR in merdian hotel..hope she is doing fine n last of all..nt forgeting my beauty consultant linda..i really wonder where she is n what she is doing now...seems to disappear in thin air..haha...hm...who else..cindy..keep asking mi to go her chruch...i n a devoted buddist..pls...spare me....
Blurgal02 posted @ 11:07 AM |
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Thursday, March 18, 2004
Date:18032004 Time:1153 Sunny day. my boss back few days ago...hhah..no more msn n icq for mi le...sianz...went for a moive with her last nite the 20 30 40. damn boring....wkend is coming...finally...dear devils...i m coming..hahahah....my bf still trying his best i think...i also dunno...all i knw is my love is no longer there...day by day as time pass, i think things might b better....i hope...well....all the best to me....i think i going to study soon. then i will not think too much..meanwhile, cheong as i can..yeah!!!
Blurgal02 posted @ 11:52 AM |
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Friday, March 12, 2004
Date: 12032004 Time: 0943 Sunny day. I met my bf last nite. Hm...just to bring him the show for him to watch. We watch it together. I can feel that he is trying to say sorry...but the word break did come out from his mouth. he treat as nthing big really happen b4. deep in my heart, i know...there is a deep long cut. nthing can heal or lessen the pian. Cure the hurt. What done acnnot b left undone. All i can do now is observe. i know we both no longer happy as before anymore. Never......
Blurgal02 posted @ 9:42 AM |
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Thursday, March 11, 2004
Date:11032004 Time:1116 Sunny day today. last nite i went to boradwalk n catch a couple of drinks with jiayan, jiani, huirong and grace. all i want is to keep myself busy...busy ...busy...busy...so that i dun have to rely on my bf anymore...i must stand on my own..now...all i wan is to wrk....ern more money...go study....i have to give some time between mi n my bf....i dun wan to rely anym9ore........
Blurgal02 posted @ 11:16 AM |
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Date: 10032004 Time:1028 Sunny day. my bf have finally talk to me last nite. He said its becoz of my temper. he wanna break with me. he says that he cannot breathe...due to my hot tempered..... this is the 1st time i heard him saying this. he took an example of his 'wife'. his 'wife' beat him, he step on my foot, my face black. he say is his fault. not his 'wife'.y must i show black face?y must be protect her? he like her b4...what can i do?he took the CNY thing back n say. he want to break...but i beg for another chance. very long..then he agreed..actually..his 1st thought is already a break up...y?izzit he no longer love me?a flaw in my heart..who can ment. he treat as nothing happen..bt me?i really dunno what shall i do. all i knw is i wanna keep this relationship.
Blurgal02 posted @ 10:27 AM |
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Tuesday, March 09, 2004
Date:09032004 Time:1006 Another day of rainy day. 2nd day of separation. havent sleep for the whole nite and i n now damn tired. my eye lid keep jumping since yesterday after i got the sms. haiz...my eyes were so sore. I have decide. no matter he chose to come back, i will still stand on my own. i have said sorry to him regarding my temper. he says i m processive. well....there is nthing i feel i m processive about. i dun care anymore. i m tired...real tired...Y do i sit here and wait for news?wat m i doing????Joanne is not this kind....i used to flirt around when I say separtion...y din i do that now?what m i doing?????????????izzit that i really put down 99.9% of my heart already??????i think its time for mi to keep back some before it really hurts n bring mi down....
Blurgal02 posted @ 10:05 AM |
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Monday, March 08, 2004
Date: 08032004 Time: 1655 It ahs been raing for the whole day. is that fate? the 1st time when we have a separation, it is also raining next day. this time, when he ask agian, its raining whole day. is god trying to console me or cry with me?i am born blur...real blur...god have been protecting me. is he/she trying to console me and tell me rainbow after rain?i dunno....i only know that today is a cold day. not only human are cold...even weather....
Blurgal02 posted @ 4:49 PM |
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Date: 0803200 Time:1019am A rainning day today.not big not small...i receivce a sms from my bf...he says that he need some time to think about our relationship and propose a separation.will my crying and pestering b able to stop the worst of all from happening?i DUNNO!!!!all i know now is i m compeletly being depress over it. we had a great time walking under the rain last nite. just a nite slp, everything is different. how i wish that i havent got to slp. how i wish i have control my temper if i know this will happen.god is really fair enough. i have play through so many relationship and this is what i get back. Thanks god for giving such a hard time. i really thought that everything will b over soon. i dunno how long he needs to think n what will be the outcome.all i know is a really having a great hrd time now. he refuse to answer my call. he refuse to talk to me from today onwards.All he still wants is separation.my face is all wet.sweet moments seems to disappear from me. WHEN THEN HE WILL COME BACK TO ME? NEVER?!i DUNNO...................
Blurgal02 posted @ 10:19 AM |
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Friday, March 05, 2004
Date:05032004 Time:1133 i had dinner with my bf last nite...hm...he knows i like to eat waffle, he secertly go buy for me.haha..so sweet...heehee..i went home and clean my hamsters cage then i realize, the youngster and smallest hamster was bleeding.i m so scare n sad. i leave it in another cage for healing. hope that my hamster can heal faster. today is junliang 21st bday chalet.as it is at jurong, me and grace decided not to go long ago. but ah guan msg me this morning. so angry wif mi, grace n zoe..not we dun wan to go......its VERY VERY far from us.y cannoy he understand? some more we no transport. how to go?he is so angry wif me. haiz.....if junliang dun wan save money, open at east coat or something, maybe i will go.JURONG leh..how to go????!!!!!
Blurgal02 posted @ 11:27 AM |
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Wednesday, March 03, 2004
hm...my first time using...still dunno how it works...i need some time to understand....
Blurgal02 posted @ 9:06 AM |
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