Happy Valentine's day
Thursday, February 14, 2008
well, this year is slightly diff coz over the years, this is the first time after so many years that i m celebrating in a single or rather half single mode. everyone tot bryan will date me dun u? but the fact that no, he didnt. in the fact that someone else dated me first. but surprisingly, i am holding back this guy.
yesterday i told myself, if bryan didnt ring be before 12pm, i will go ahead wiht this guy. but happen that bryan ring me at 11.48am to discuss about some other thing. out of furiousness, i ask me straight that are you meeting me tommorrow (which is today) and he sound surprise and give me an answer as 'if you have plans then we head out together lo' my heart sank. is that the way i should be treated? i really just wanna give up and just go dating with another guy since i have fly him so many times. after some talkign then i told him that there is this new guy fren i got to know and he start to ask me who when how. prehaps, i started to get a little tired of not knowing what relationship we are having. yes, you guys have advice me not to lead him on, but the fact that i m not. duno who is leading who on?
he is nice to me at times, but he have not ask any golden question before. maybe even if he do, i will reject so he didnt ask coz i told him once, i dun wanna commit into relationship yet. but still, he didnt even try to ask before. is that my fault?we are really very close till the extend that who thinks we are frens. when ppl say start naming me as his gf, he didnt deny in front of me. WTH is that kind of shit?
the first one who wish me happy vday is the guy, my ex kary and my ex coll. now where is he?
I think i m moving on.