looking forward
Monday, January 28, 2008
well...thanks to all which ask me what happen and offering to meet up etc, actually i m really fine just that i am doing some kind of self attack for no reason. i m getting more older but i realise my thinking is getting younger that i find it amusing.
my work hasn't been good as my sales is dropping. i use to hit the minimum target by the second week and the 3rd week will be a additional bonus to me. but in jan, i am not even half of the target quota and this makes me more despair. and in dec, i have been doing only border line. i have always been at the top of the sales in ST n SN service and all these will make me lost confidence. i m not sure if anyone have exceeded me and i hope no one did.
i start doing some soul searching during this period. i really wonder what the hell upon me is happening. i m earning enough to spend, my family is well being with my financial support, the only thing that is lacking in me is relationship. like what i always say, i dun really need a bf at the moment after being seriously hurt before that. the streght that i left with is only a little and i really dun wish that my little streght os also being use up. as everyone know, recently there is this guy which always hang ard with me. if you ask me what is what is our relationship, i seriously have no ideas. i dunno y he always ask me where i am and come and look for me. dun ask me why, i really dunno lei.... so...eh...dun ask me where is he the next time. if he tag along, he do, if he doesn't, then doesn't. :) i left with only a little confidence in relationship, dun let me disappoint even further.
anyway, looking forward, since i m not on dating and not seeing anyone, i decide to do a major decision later on. i m going to study and this time round, i am serious. i am still pondering last few months and i think missy knows that i wanted to study. but like what she say, i am at the highest peak of my career now, do i have time? and the is offering at project and assignment base, so it is not much problem to me. and i mention to my boss and guess what, she ask me to go ahead and during this period, she will cover my duties. just last week, she send me a list of closing leads and tell me to close it to earn more comm for my education. where the hell can i find this boss man? u tell me?
right now, i dun care what is happening ard but i need a degree for me to move on if i wanna move. all in my mind now is, $$ and study. the next up coming is family. :)
something interesting that i never know
Friday, January 25, 2008
I'm Independent romantic
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
suits me
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
i will be back
Monday, January 21, 2008
???
Monday, January 14, 2008
you ve done so much just to break off with me
him says:
then i don't think i should spoil your efforts
???? question mark....
A Message by George Carlin:
Friday, January 11, 2008
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
i think most ppl have read the above before. i like those words that is in bold.
Thoughts of my mind: will you all spend time with me? Do i always say kind words?will anyone give me a hug when they c me the next time? i havent say i love you for very long time...and will ppl ever cherish the time i m with them?
the wedding
Monday, January 07, 2008
woke up at 5.30am i think but i am pretty sure that i am the only one that is the latest. woke up the lastest one... :P then head off to the bathroom after some nagging from gracey and jasmine. :P and of coz...cat ask me to quickly go wash up...so i think i hurried to the bathroom to brush my teeth with a half asleep mode. then i dress up and go to my bag for my make up set etc. i am seriously not a very morning person and i really cant rem what i did during the half mode awake brain. i knw the phone rang shortly and the mac is here...yeah...our breakfast. yummy....no big breakfast coz its too early for my tummy. before i start eating, i am running around, taking things from my bag. it took me some time to realise that there is something call, move your bag to you instead. haha.. :P
had a quick breakfast with the mouth half open and share a harsh brown with gracey which the funny part is, she already eat half and after each bite, i keep bringing the harsh brown to her. whahha...
anyway, after that, me and gracey busy preparing the welcome drink and the penalty food for the groom. i am putting wasabi on the chips and gracey doign the ABC with egg. yes...i chose ABC coz its more bitter and more er xin. i purposely dun wan guiness..hehe..ops..hehe....
7.30, the groom arrive and this is a more better groom i have seen coz the previous round for my sister wedding, the groom was late and best part is 8 sister, 20 over brother that makes us in a losing feet. :) so now, there is 5 sisters, 4 brothers and the 4 brothers really steady. they drink the welcome drink without even any rejection. eat the sour, sweet, bitter, hot without resistance. until the penalty part which they had the chips with wasabi, waxing, pore clearing...
finally at 8.15am, we left the hotel and head to KP please. did i mention there is a kuku guest at level 28 one floor below us that complain about us. cb kuku neh neh...si indian...i m not trying to be racist but once agian, indian and malay is a no no to me.
upon arriving to KP house, we were early so we took some shots here and there. i was once again the one doing the tea ceremony. then we head back to cat's place for the tea ceremony before to hotel. was already tired and exhasuted. so i jump to the bed and Zzzzing...and please....wayne..if you are reading this, i just wanna share that you and sharon really very noisy lei....nbz..... u are not sleepign with her only lo.... >..< dunno what to say you but really, if a girl go, just let her be. if she is happy, u are suppose to be happy for her as well. so....let her go...
nite time the wedding banquet is successful. :) all thanks to jasmine.
will c cat this sunday for dinner treat...i told her no need but she insist. so...girls, we will c each other on sunday agian....
till then..pic will be post later
Treadmill Madness
Friday, January 04, 2008
this is really funny..you should watch...
2008 resolution
and to my darlings who have been asking me about bryan and me, ya...we are close friends that look like couple but we are not an item at all. if you ask him is he interested in me, i guess all of you got the same ans as in no answer. but if you ask me this question, my reply will be, 'we are just friends'. and now, i have a more detail answer as, if i start liking him a lot, it will be so dead and therefore, before this happens, i just wanna say, i will start ignoring him and aviod him until this feeling is gone by t he wind. dun ask me y, just let me be in this way coz since he is also unclear wat he wants
resolutions for the year:
1) not to be late for work anymore
2) earn enough to buy myself a nice diamond ring
3) change my image to a real executive women...no more little ger
4) improve my blurness not to be worst but improve
5) boost my sales to the best and start moving out
6) help myself before i jump even deeper
7) Diet? :P
8) tell myself, be happy everyday...day to day...stay alive
my requirements for a new future:
1) young and promising (never changed)
2) able to shelter me with love
3) understand my position as i have to work late
4) never a sign on guy
5) keep to promise and never leave me alone
in case kary is reading this, and yes, i promise myself, never to look for sign on guy anymore. i understand that you will ask a lot of whys, the reason is, i cannot take it when same this happens and moreover, i am really unable t o accept as 2 failure relationship with sign on guys. Sorry.... and whoever you will be with in future, i just wish you all the best and take care. :)
2008, new start and new beginning. time for me to grow up and i am always ready for the next challenge in life. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger (bryan taught me this) whahha...