looking forward
Monday, January 28, 2008
well...thanks to all which ask me what happen and offering to meet up etc, actually i m really fine just that i am doing some kind of self attack for no reason. i m getting more older but i realise my thinking is getting younger that i find it amusing.
my work hasn't been good as my sales is dropping. i use to hit the minimum target by the second week and the 3rd week will be a additional bonus to me. but in jan, i am not even half of the target quota and this makes me more despair. and in dec, i have been doing only border line. i have always been at the top of the sales in ST n SN service and all these will make me lost confidence. i m not sure if anyone have exceeded me and i hope no one did.
i start doing some soul searching during this period. i really wonder what the hell upon me is happening. i m earning enough to spend, my family is well being with my financial support, the only thing that is lacking in me is relationship. like what i always say, i dun really need a bf at the moment after being seriously hurt before that. the streght that i left with is only a little and i really dun wish that my little streght os also being use up. as everyone know, recently there is this guy which always hang ard with me. if you ask me what is what is our relationship, i seriously have no ideas. i dunno y he always ask me where i am and come and look for me. dun ask me why, i really dunno lei.... so...eh...dun ask me where is he the next time. if he tag along, he do, if he doesn't, then doesn't. :) i left with only a little confidence in relationship, dun let me disappoint even further.
anyway, looking forward, since i m not on dating and not seeing anyone, i decide to do a major decision later on. i m going to study and this time round, i am serious. i am still pondering last few months and i think missy knows that i wanted to study. but like what she say, i am at the highest peak of my career now, do i have time? and the is offering at project and assignment base, so it is not much problem to me. and i mention to my boss and guess what, she ask me to go ahead and during this period, she will cover my duties. just last week, she send me a list of closing leads and tell me to close it to earn more comm for my education. where the hell can i find this boss man? u tell me?
right now, i dun care what is happening ard but i need a degree for me to move on if i wanna move. all in my mind now is, $$ and study. the next up coming is family. :)