Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Caught Singapore idol yesterday and i realise that 2 singer from Raw energy took part in the competition. i guess is a bit unfair to the rest coz they are well train man. for those who dunno, raw energy is the live band at devils bar every wed, fri and sat..
Was late for work this morning and i was late for 30mins. for the whole bus journey, a lot of things come to my mind suddenly. i can feel that i have lost interest in everything. i think i will stop blogging for a while...until i recover
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
was at work till 7.30 last nite. i guess if jasmine's god-bro din ask me out for dinner, i would have stay till9pm to finish my work. went to geylang for dinner and after that chnatown for KTV. Jasmine came shortly after that but i knw she is in a foul mood. even though i dunno what happn. her bf said that is becoz of her ex...but i dun think so coz i dun sense that. but after that, i beliee. even though i dunno what have happen, all i can say is, whenever she is comfortable to share trouble with me, give me a ring n i will always be there. same goes to anyone out there. i can be always busy with work..as usual..but still, i will always lend a listening ear to anyone there coz i care and concern with all my frens. u all can dun care about me, but still, i care.
I had a bad dram last nite that make me open my eyes wide at 4.38am. is that a warning? i can only rem me saying wanted to go devils bar..but turn out, devils bar become a drnking place with white sofa and red seats with candles at each table.my frens were there, but i cant rem who it was...but i saw stan and jerlyn. outside, there is a huge parade square that have live band in the middle with all the step seats around it.ppl were dancing and pushing each other down the stage. i rem me goign to toilet and upon return from toilet, i saw a uncle very angrily shouting on the phone. i nv met jerlyn's dad before but somehow, it tell me that he is her dad. i walk over n say i m jerlyn's fren and ask what happen. he told me that jerlyn is the only daughter and how dare she come this kind of place. someone then pull me away and i think is grace ba...coz i can only c the shoulders and not the head....i rem dancing halfway, jasmine come and ask me to go home. weridest thing is she is driving... and i rem someone is behind talking to me askign me to keep my hp or something coz i m smsing someone.and i loo at the watch, showing 1.10am. when turning out from the place, jasmine was driving very fast and there is a trailer in front that we bang onto. the trailer overturn and land on top of our car and i can c that it is landing. i cant react at all. i strugglign to keep myself awake. i can feel my breath getting slower and almost stopping. i can feel the shattered glasses all over me.i dunno how i manage to open my eyes wide and panting. it is scary...i try not to rem..but still i can feel that it had happen. i guess it have afected me till now. i dunno what hae happen..i m scare that suddenly i will leave the world...will u all ever shed a tear if i ever gone? is that a warning or is that just a nightmare?
i tired to sleep after that, and another dream come along. i was in Taiwan alone...yes...all my myself shopping alone. after that, i woke up...
Sunday, May 28, 2006
10 more mins my 23th year will start. ya..turning 23 today. well...same question, what have i done for myself? my work is still the same. but i am single when celebrating my bday this year.
yesterday was out at JB with mark, mark sis, tommy, JY and guan. was suppose to only have a dinner and come back...but al thanks to a person that organize to go disco after that. leaving my fren who were at BQ waiting for me to go down. i m angry coz my bro is leaving china and nt sure when he will be back..i din manage to coem back to singapore for him. All thanks to him....but i knw hw is nice to me. he make his sub-con to buy a cake there for me. yes...he is ncie and sweet, too bad, not my type and i m nt interested in him. frens maybe...but anything more than that is out of question. reason: he use money to crush ppl down, he is porcessive, he is too proud of himself that anyone else is a minor to him.
Rushing back to singapore for my frens. some have left already.. sad...liek wat i keep tellign guan..i wan to go back singapore....actually i dun intend to drink at JB. but if i cant finish, we all cant go back singapore. i force myself to drink there. arriving Singapore, i rush home to change and head down to BQ straight. Thanks mark for sending us to and fro.jasmine's god-bro came alogn wishig me happy bday in his uniform..haha...werid rite.
after the BQ session, i went home and sleep. was nt feelign too well and keep sleeping. until nite, i suppose to meet my sec sch fren for dinner but i call it off coz i wasnt feelign well. but after that,he still come by punggol to accompany me to eat. jasmine's god-bro and jasmine's bf came along too. after that, we took a ride to punggol beach..was very dark and that was the first tiem i went there.
My bday coming to the end and tommorrow will be the 1st day turning 23. i made a wish in JB..i just hope that my wish will come true. nthing much and i m nt sharing my wish here..i scare it will not come true
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
hai...my day was spoilt by a stupid man staying at my block this morning. i was on level 14 when he got in at 9. i was combing my hair when he came in and so idiot that he dunno how to press the close door button. i was rushign on time as the last bus to take is arriving in less than 1 min time. and damn fuckign him, dun even knw what is close button. @!##@$%#$@# after i press for the door close, i walk forward for the dorr to open so that i can run to the bus stop before i miss my bus. damn im, he push me away fromt he door and walk out slow...knnbccb...cb lang...knn.....not gentleman at all. nb..better dun let me c him agian...i regert and should have shouted for molest....the way he bang me really let me lost my balance. if i m notrushing to work, i would have qurrel with him sia
bad day.....anyway...meeting jasmine later..i goign to grab something additional for her after wrk later before meeting her for dinner. her treat n my treat today..hah...i treat her n she treat me :D she is bringing one guy fren of hers and i think i have already met him last sat. i knw what she is trying to do..but..hai....dun think i m into that
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
Our bday celebration
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
her feelings for P is visible amongst us. Either its always about P she's talking about, smsing P now and then, and complaining that P doesn't reply to her messages.
Above is taken by my cousin's blog. and suddenly, images starts flashing across in my mind. I start to wonder, why guys can ever be hard-hearted and refuse to reply sms or messages? do they mean to be merciless or uncompassionate..or rather, insensitive is the best word to describle them?Have anyone here try that the bfs dun always reply sms until u are angry and fed up? until gfs flare up and blow to the top of their temper then they start to reply. but the consistent reply of smses dun last long for sure. Or maybe, the person that you care for dun reply your smses or messgaes? esp when the reply is really cold and u rather they dun reply. What do guys do that? is it that they think that it will be better in that way, ignoring how the other party feel?In another words, the other party will be hanging halfway in the middle or nowhere.
"If you're really not happy together, don't force yourself to be together." Its not exactly a saying but, its kind of a "rule" in a relationship isn't it?
I really agree with the above. dun ever force yourself to do or be with someone you dun like. Other way round, if you ever likethe person, then y not give a chance to urself and try to be together. even if it doesnt work, at least u have try isnt it.
But ppl, dun think too much, its what my thinking is after reading my cousin's blog. i m glad that she is happy with her bf and of coz, i wish them all the best and hope they wun forget me during their wedding in no time. :)
think i m a bit pyhsco soon.haha..yup..i brought my wrk home n i just finish doign it. today was really bad. think the business is pickign up baack agian and soon, my retreat is comign up in July. yup...we got 3k to spend on our trip and thats what it was worth for fighting with them for the past 1 year. I wonder if we are going to thailand or resorts., but trust me, it will be boring coz i m not click with them.
Workign is hard..i m trying to climb to a higher level. i m lookign forward to a chance to move on to sales completely rather than liasing herer n there. its really hard coz i got the most comment and most complain. every single thing passby me, and every case follow up..i m driving myself crazy soon. life is gettign harder and i still have to make myself stand worthwhile. i need connections but i m gettign nowhere. help me please.....i m tired...but still, i must make my way up...
Monday, May 15, 2006
i was wokring at conard last sun..or rather, yesterday. yes..keep ur mouth close and i m not joking.i already make the booking since last week.thinking that this weekend would be a logn one and woudl liek to earn extra $$.i started at 10..supposingly. but the manager in charge also late.haha..guess whos that....jasmine la.haha.Manage to clock in at 9.55am. then slowly change and wait for jasmine coz i wanna put my bag in her locker. then, 10.15, i went to salon by the pool with her.the breakfast have not ended and only can give her the room at 11am.none of her staff is there and she ask me draw table cloth and a qicuk puff.after the puff, i went back to the pool side and start folding napkins with her staff. i nearly forgot how to do it.i have been class as new comer...so...as usual, will get bully.hai.....jasmine ask one ger to lay the table cloth and set the table with me when we got the salon. hai...youngster very funny, set half way go do other things. end up i m the only one setting the table. how clever she is, after i set finish then she walk over to touch a bit as if she have done it. but nvm....
They were to slow motion, so the room is ready only at 1pm where some guest are already here.anyway, they are too early as the function is suppose to be 2 - 5pm. damn...y are they so gan jiong sia. anyway, jasmine release her staf one by one to eat, i din eat coz i m not in the mood to eat also. so i stayed and help her set the last table. function started, so i check if my partner have eaten...she said her had and asked me to take mine. funniest part is, from what i rem, only manager gt the rite to ask me eat...she dare to ask me go n eat. really very cute lei....fuction started and i slowly oversee the function for jasmine as she is busy. the china man gt the cheek to ask me smlie when he dun even do that...crazy ppl...for what i smile at him, i smile also smile to the guest...but, as usual, my attidue, i dun look friendly when workign BQT ba.anyway, whatever they command me to do it, i do it lo coz i act noob, life easlier. but they are really brainless and never give a second tot that how can ever a new comer get to work 10am? brainless rite....
Just 1 hour before fuction ended, one staff, S broke the glass right in the middle of the function room. a bad one as the couple is along the path as well...even though the glass did not hurt anyone, still...cheapo guest sure ask for discount one.Jasmine face immediately changed..i knw its a bad one..die.....at first cannot find the couple's honey jar already very jia lat, plus broken glass....my god....when guest left, jasmine shouted across the room ' S...thank you very much for the broken glass' of coz, wat jasmine did is not so bad as there are only 6 staff ard at that time, indulding me. S face changed and its even darker than bao qin tian. i start to think back, arent we more worst when there are 20 over staff and u broke a platter rite in the middle of the ballroom? this is only a minor, why she take it so hard? just smile and continue to wrk lo...no big deal ma.....they arent aware i m jasmine fren, i heard her saying 'shoudl have wrk in ballroom...if wrk ballroom, nothing will happen' y is she so native...accident do happen..its just the matter if it is at the back room or in front of guest.
at around 5+, salon is ready and jasmine ask all of us to go down to ballroom. of coz, my job ended and i can go home..not like last time..can wrk till 1 - 2 am....i old le..haha. while on the way back to office, i saw S holding a captin hand complaining that jasmine shouted at her in front of everyone..then i realise how come is she so 'zhuai'..Captian as a bf..no wonder la...but, what jasmine did is correct ma..i dun c anything that she have done wrong...if it is me, she would did that to me as well for sure. just a sorry wun kill anyone...she is so angry and she want to sign off the voucher as well...hai....litle ger...havent seen the world yet..
after work, me n jasmine head to chinatown for dinner.had a nice long dinner...n of coz, that our first meal of the day...i think my gastic starts coming back...no more chilli for me agian..hai...this reminds me that i still have no idea how to collect my pay...hm.....
Anyway, whoever wanna wrk can let jasmine know ok. she sure take anyone of us in..coz we are definately not noob....
Friday, May 12, 2006
so fast anotehr year pass...i turning 18 agian.....hahaha....joking la.....hehe..anyway, i will be holding a mini gathering with jasmine at devils bar on 20 May 2006. 9pm. Cosuin u are invited to bring ur buddha along if he wants to shake his bom bom...hehe..
These few weeks, a lot of things happen, form what u can c from my nick or rather my blog. i kind of stress out by life. Sorry that i blurt out that day to yan in msn as i m really very stress with the wrk i m doign now. even my PMS become irregular, my temper become uncontrolable. i seems to sense my temper is comign back to me and i can feel the eveil eye look i give to ppl who i m angry at. i really dun wan that temper agian....so ppl, control me k...hehe..not forgetiing ppl who keep talking to me in msn these days. esp yan...ops..i make her wrory sick last nite...but dun worry about my la...i have been safe n sound for these years dun i?
My brother will be leaving to China a day before my actually bday and its a one way ticket...meaning...he is winding up his 'business' here n goign China to seek for other business opptunity. and of coz..he is going thet empty handed as usual, n without any plan. i dun even knw what is he thinking. just wish all the best to him and dun ask me for money to fly him n his gf back can liao.o ya...his gf quit the job as well...dunn what they two thinking...i guess..my brother shoudl get married in china first then come back singapore ba. dunno him la..best part is dun ask me for money to fly him n his wife + kids back can liao...haha
Bringing my mum for mother day dinner later on..i wonder where she chose..hai...another day to make my wallet one big hole agian...but nvm la..once a while..i think shoudl be ok...
o ya....have anyone take a look on my cable ski pics?i think i look a bit fat...but...er....nvm...n the guy who took the pic with my is only my fren, so u all dun guess to much.just ordinaly frens.
Actually i wanted to post a wish list...but i realise i have enough of anything...except a wallet for work. Please ppl, dun buy me dolls or even display items....also, dun get me fury things. my nose n skin gettign sentative these days, n my cupboard have enough of kitties le..cant put in anymore...best is give me cash...n a bf prehaps? haha...i think i prefer cars.....rofl...dun buy display cars hor...i kill u all
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
have anyone wonder how dreams come about?i really wonder somhow...i was dreaming about someone last nite and i wonder if i will do today.actually, i have been dreaming about someone since last mth i think. the dreams are of coz lamer...i dun believe it will ever happen in real life. anyway,i was thinking shall i blog when i come back after copule of drinks with yan. not excatly couple rather, it was 2 jug plus a mug...haha....all thanks to her, if not, i would have stay in the office till 9pm where helpdesk left the office together.
I m goign to bed n dream agian...what will i dream tonite? probably my future?cant make it...think the beer starts my head spinning...
Monday, May 08, 2006
woot...i m back....feelign more recharge and more relax after this ski. i love the feelign when i was pull out onto the water and start ski-ing. i guess u guys will love it when u have a chance to join me. for ppl who are interested below is the pic my fren have took with his D600. very clear pic, samsung product is always interesting..haha..of coz, for more information, you can chekc with me. :)
http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/blurgal02/album?.dir=/1926scd
Well, after this trip i feel more relax..but..the min i touch Sinagpore n come back to work, things come back to me agian.
Now whole body aching liek hell...really dun feel like waking up this morning sia. xing ku for whole day...heart no up no down as well..hahha....anyway, had a nice day of trip to batam. i love the place man...
Sunday, May 07, 2006
yeah..yeah....first time vote for my area man.actually, i m nt sure who and who is fighting this area. anyway, i walk to the pollign station this afternoon which is 1 - 2 bus stop away from my place. actually, i find it weird coz there is a pollign station right belwo my place. i dun udnerstand y they assign me so far. was sweating all the way to the polling station. how sad huh..... was alone coz my bro voted and my mom is waiting for my dad. i need to rush off to meet yan, so i went alone. Officer din check my bag...i find it weird also...maybe they tot i m a little ger with a hello kitty bag...haha..
Head to clementi after that to meet yan and buy swimming costume. Then after that, we went swimmign at clementi. i knw, i a bit crazy...travel so far just to swim...but if for a fren liek her, i think its worth travelling.hehe..after that, we went to have dinner then to her place to watch ice age 2. so funny..haha....i think someone is shock to realise i was at yan place earlier on. :) but, anyway, it doesnt matter ....i was glue to the tv most of teh time. yan went dblo with her poly fren and i went home. we took cab from wast coast to punggol...luncky no mid-night. cab fare was 17 only. if mid-night...think i can faint...drank a bit of martell at yan place. she scare i one day nv drink will die liek that.hehe
My dad n mum is a bit shokc to c me home so early on sat nite..haha...i good ger ok...hehe..tommorrow will be a beautiful day.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
Was out to MOS last nite.Its JO, one of my company vendor ger bday. she invited 5 of out staff only. 2 ladies, inculde me la, 3 guys. so after work, me n christy went for dinner and the rest of them go home coz one of them have transport to lobang another and one engineer was out of job in the evening somewhere near his place. at ard 10pm, we arrive outside and as usual, stand outside wait for late comers. Then, after we are in, my fren, Jo, open a bottle. i asked her one bottle enough for her or me, and she said not enough then open another bottle lo. all i think of is she must be a good drinker, but i have 4 ppl with me, so i tot should be able to make her drunk by second bottle. when we are up there at ard 10.45, i make for drink half cup with me and each time, i m the one pouring. ard 3 - 4 continuous cup, she ask me dance with her at the dance floor. so by 11.15pm, we were dancing at the dance floor. no yan dao to see but a lot of ladies who think that they are very pretty dance ard us. i nearly puke man.... ard 11.30, my fren, Jo says that she wan to go back to the table. so we climb up the stairs and go back to our table. just secs after we reach our table, she ran towards the direction of the toilet while i m preparing another cup for her before i go home. she vomitted in the toilet. i felt so guilty coz i m the only one who make her drink. i dun mean to coz i tot she is a drinker. who knows....ops...i make someone drunk at her bday agian. :( well..mine is coming, i dun have a good feeling.... -.- at 12am, christy bf came to pick her up and we left. Jo's fren pull me and say that i make her drunk and still go home so early.... haha....
Today she still make it to work. she dun rem what tiem she went home but she rem she feel asleep at MOS. weird ppl huh..of i were her, i would have left the place and head home alone. haha...today is a boring day....dun even knw what happen actually that someone din talk to me since yesterday. dun even knw what happen. i wun disturb since someone din talk to me...even i can c someone is online now....
Monday, May 01, 2006
hm..... since no one goign for cable ski, i m goign myself agian. :) will be goign for another relax day agian.hehe
Fri was out with yan at BQ.found a nice ktv with no ppl one.bottle at 123 only, but the seats n pool table sucks.haha..yan was on bad mood, so i accompany her to devils after that.be there only a while and went home after that
Sat went swimming with my fren.after that i nuan at home until yan and jerlyn call me out to ktv.we went back to the same ktv as we still have drinks left.after that, we switch to another ktv pub.more x but the seats are better.at ard 3+, junliang jio devils, but i still head home as i promise someone. sleep at 5 plus and wake up at 8 as its my fren, sunny 7th day.
Sun early in the morning, went to guan ming shan then to dover, he use to stay there and talk to his mum.suppose to go suntan with huirong and jasmin, but they already left. after that suppose to meet jasmin to shop at orchard, but...nvm.... i head home and sleep a while, by 7 i was at orchard with my ex-collague for coffee.then after that, yan came down and accompany me.we went to play pool then to devils at ard 11+.sun devils is quite nice, the band is chinese band and with jokes n song.quite good to relax, but too much ppl as mon is a holiday.left early also as i m tired...din drink also until they push a mug to me...
Today was home in the morning..din wanna get up that early but those evnt held below my place was really too noisy.so i went jogging at 3+. quarrel with mum and after that, i head to my sis place as its her bday today.actually i wanted to go do something one, but someone disappoint me.anyway, treat my sis eat at soup resturant but i din eat.funny? pay ard $100 as she is with my 3 god-daughter,her parents and her sis.anyway, its her bday, so nvm lo.after that, i went to meet wendy and eat with mark n his gf and mark's fren.hai...i m so extra man...if i knw mark's fren lieks Wendy, then i will nt have gone.haha..think wendy goign to kill me for saying this. but..haha...i never state name, so no worries. for ppl wish to know further detail can just msn me wor...lol..anyway, we ate carbs there..havent ate chilli carb for ages...die..think i m slightly fatter now. tommorrow must go on diet le.After dinner i head home