Monday, July 31, 2006
How would you feel when you throw a surpise party, organize everything, nearly fail and end up become a sad brithday? the perosn who put up all these is feelign like shit.
i think a lot of ppl is waiting for my entry but i am gogin to blog something about fri weather you al like it or not, everyone is on their hot temper now. but i would liek to put this as the first question. how would you feel when your best freind dun let you go home with your boyfriend? yes, i have name Tommy as my boyfriend and i think he do deserve a chance. i guess this sentence can offical explain my angriness when my best friend boyfriend refuse to let him go home with me. I wanted to tell all of you but i tot you guys will knw it coz he is standing beside me the whole nite protecting me. and little that i dunno that all of you din realise. Anyway, i admit i did rasie my voice slightly on Jiayan which i feel very after that. i apologies to her in front of Jolin and Hong rong le. i seriously feel very bad but i do have a reason but i din say on the spot. i should have tell yan stright that Tommy is my bf and i m goign home with him. But i dunno y i din. And lookign at Guan who is so furious with yan or rather, the target should be me but now yan. I dunno why he vent all his anger on Yan which till now, i am quite angry about it.
Also, for ppl who are blaming me that cause them to quarrel, ya...i am sorry that i make them quarrel but i will talk to them myself. dun worry. if you want to ignore me in any way, i can'r do anything about it as its up to individual. Is not that i am not treating you as frens or buddy, rather, i cant change a person thinking. Still everyone of you is liek my sister to me, i teasure everyone of you, whoever is reading the blog (if i knw you read).
And for ppl, who add in more wood on the fire, add in more ingidents in the soup, i know who you are and whoever you are, for god sake, if you wanna spread around, i cant stop you and if you are trying to making my best fren bf beat Tommy, i guess you have made it coz he have already fallen to the trap. But i do believe, he will be billiant enough to climb up from there, so, for al the troublemakers, keep your finger cross coz i dun believe he will trust you all more than me. ?