我是不是该安静的走开，还是该勇敢的留下来
Friday, June 29, 2007
yes, we knew each other online and it sparks off pretty fast. within a week we are together as an item. he met up with my best friend jocelyn and her comment is pretty good..
he meet up with my parents and my mum says other than a little bad habit with is not really obvious, she still can accpet him
he met up with my god-sister and the comment is, he is pretty nice
he meet up with missy, serendipity, mark, itchybackside, big cat, only missy said he is unfriendly.
i m seriously thinking of giving up. i know i cant fight coz
1) ppl so long with him, sure understand him more that me
2) i can feel my bf still likes her
3) her persense have never left me
4) i feel her somewhere
5) i broke down and cry
6) i m a cry baby who cannot take it
7) she can give up everything for him which i cant
8) she will love him more than he do
But
1) my bf once promise me that he wun go back to her
2) my bf promise that i m so much better than her
3) he promise me that he loves me...
i do love him....he given me TLC which i wanted, the only barrier we are having is my smoking. ya..start laughing, that is a very far off thing...this doesnt mean i will not quit. i have seen friends quit becoz of bf and end up smoke even more after break up. otherwise, smoke at bf back. told him that she quit but keep puffing when out with friends. find reasons not to go out with bf etc....i hate acting coz i have to do it in office everyday. i dun wanna act in front of my bf as well.
but to be frank, ya..true, one day i will have to quit. but actualy i have been cutting down coz i cant get any cigarette anywhere... have to budget a bit, pub and ktv no longer welcome smoker..guess i will cut down ba. but not for him...
i m a easliy jealous women which i think everyone does.. esp when you are serious about it. i do have a few puppy love and guess what, i break off with them becoz i wanna smoke. this doesnt apply now, prehaps i m more easliy sad now. i m no longer strong. i need more TLC... *crying*
this doesnt mean that i give up smoking becoz of him. I give up becoz i feel i should do.
how would one feel if another guy/ger comes along and tell your partner that 'i would do anything as long as you are back with me'
Ans: One will feel sad...one will cry...one will....but one will not let another suffer...another be sad...another cry... one will rather...
Labels: need TLC