Tuesday, May 30, 2006
was at work till 7.30 last nite. i guess if jasmine's god-bro din ask me out for dinner, i would have stay till9pm to finish my work. went to geylang for dinner and after that chnatown for KTV. Jasmine came shortly after that but i knw she is in a foul mood. even though i dunno what happn. her bf said that is becoz of her ex...but i dun think so coz i dun sense that. but after that, i beliee. even though i dunno what have happen, all i can say is, whenever she is comfortable to share trouble with me, give me a ring n i will always be there. same goes to anyone out there. i can be always busy with work..as usual..but still, i will always lend a listening ear to anyone there coz i care and concern with all my frens. u all can dun care about me, but still, i care.
I had a bad dram last nite that make me open my eyes wide at 4.38am. is that a warning? i can only rem me saying wanted to go devils bar..but turn out, devils bar become a drnking place with white sofa and red seats with candles at each table.my frens were there, but i cant rem who it was...but i saw stan and jerlyn. outside, there is a huge parade square that have live band in the middle with all the step seats around it.ppl were dancing and pushing each other down the stage. i rem me goign to toilet and upon return from toilet, i saw a uncle very angrily shouting on the phone. i nv met jerlyn's dad before but somehow, it tell me that he is her dad. i walk over n say i m jerlyn's fren and ask what happen. he told me that jerlyn is the only daughter and how dare she come this kind of place. someone then pull me away and i think is grace ba...coz i can only c the shoulders and not the head....i rem dancing halfway, jasmine come and ask me to go home. weridest thing is she is driving... and i rem someone is behind talking to me askign me to keep my hp or something coz i m smsing someone.and i loo at the watch, showing 1.10am. when turning out from the place, jasmine was driving very fast and there is a trailer in front that we bang onto. the trailer overturn and land on top of our car and i can c that it is landing. i cant react at all. i strugglign to keep myself awake. i can feel my breath getting slower and almost stopping. i can feel the shattered glasses all over me.i dunno how i manage to open my eyes wide and panting. it is scary...i try not to rem..but still i can feel that it had happen. i guess it have afected me till now. i dunno what hae happen..i m scare that suddenly i will leave the world...will u all ever shed a tear if i ever gone? is that a warning or is that just a nightmare?
i tired to sleep after that, and another dream come along. i was in Taiwan alone...yes...all my myself shopping alone. after that, i woke up...