2nd entry of the day
Monday, March 31, 2008
rumors saying that when he is with me, he is filrting with other gers that lead to our break up. i explained that we broke up merely becoz of his bad temper and drinking habits that i cannot take it. yes i do draw a lot that says we will break up becoz of another ger. :) which it didnt happen.
anyway, dunno he is drunk or somthing. he aked for a 2nd chance. i truly know that he is the one that can support me forever, question is,'do i wan that?' no...i knw i dun wan that coz i will depend on him forever. let c how it goes.
He and garry both come back to me saying how regret they are to lose me. y guys wait till lost then they start to regret? y dun treasure in the first place. it really beats me and make me wonder why do they do that?
what i can ay to guys is, do rem what u have today make not be with you tml. girls, tell your guy about it.
PS: love is gone means it will never come back. do treasure what you have and dun do wrong things
beauty or brain?
story:
she, 19 year old, eh...pic c quite pretty, in office ok niah...with the voice pretty turn off.
speical feature: half tigh short skirt with g-string everyday. had a bf for 2 year broke up 2 days after vday and date with my helpdesk head 4 days after vday.
question: is she a bitch? haha
but her blog asked a very good question. will you chose to have inner or outer beauty? to me, as long as your inner and personailty is good, it doesnt matter how bad you wear, how simple it is, wat matter is the heart.
no matter how pretty you are, as long as you have a bad heart no matter how pretty the clothes are, how expensive your bags cost, nothing will change coz simple as i believe this kind of person wun go too far off.
true, no one is perfect in this world and you can have the whole world going after you but who truly loves you?
if given me to chose, i will still be myself even i know i aint prefect. however, i am still changing and still growing up, seeing more things. and yes, even at your age now, you are still growing and more things for you to see and learn thru. always rem, do not stop moving on coz it will only let you stay in shadows.
you need to move on and you will laugh at your past then.
2011, August
Friday, March 28, 2008
hm...in this case, i will be 28 liao lei....hm...my idea marriage age but who is going to marry me?
Distance recently
Monday, March 17, 2008
i seriously hope that is not bryan who let us have a distance. i understand that you all dun like him.
neverthless, i still hope that the ger fren of mine wil be fine soon.
Angry with neighbourhood bank
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
think most of you have guess and sching now. the thing is till now, my bank loan is not approve. surprise huh? my brother drawing 1.7k and me myself 1.5k yet with both of us, i cant loan a sum of 17k. what t he hell is that shit? and the person call me say have to inculde my dad..come on..its only 400 per month and what the hell they scare i cannot afford sia? nnb.....i seriously have a great impression on how this nirghbourhood country bank work. Total sum loan to me is only 15k. which means that i need to top up another 2k in cash myself. how the hell and i goign to find this sum of money.
i need money, anyone can help me? i guess i really got to work part time from now on and i think i m going to interview soon. bye to boiler every Fri very soon...
Changing my job to house wrecker?
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Battling with the sales quota that my compnay is suppose to hit. Even if i do it without commission, i just hope that we can hit the quota that was set for ys, 1.2million, yeah, you get it right, 1.2million.
not too far off and we are just at the edge of hitting it. evey single day someone will come to me 'ger, how much have to close today' at times i wonder, why the hell so many ppl register under this ISP? Wat ends on 10 March and instead of seeing blood, my bosses given us a stock of flower each which now is still look beautiful and the person say can last for 3 weeks. i guess when it start to wither, the war will be just ended also. :) so it keeps us ongoign for this period
hm....what is my topic about then. i realise back in 2006, a ex engineer who is already enage tried to tackle me and i nearly get it off with it. however, last min i manage to pull myself back, coping well beign just frens. we did have a little kiss just once. 2007,nothing much have happen as i do have a stable but yet not lasting relationship. but early this year, one of my ex sales coll keep msning me askign me to go out and date with him wheerby he is married with a kid. what the hell?! just as when i m rejecting him all the way, another come in, married without kid tellign me how much he actually likes me and really wanted to be with me to keep me accompany.
what the hell is that goign on? i believe in karma and do i look like a family wrecker to you guys? i m still single and moving on pretty well. i want a future husband and not other ppl husband. this makes me recall that back in 17, i fell in love with htis guy with a gf but i decide to stop seeing him. but the time we contacted back when i am 20, he is married with a daughter and we end up together for couple of months and this makes me feel very bad coz i knw i m not suppose to and i stop it without even thinking further.
with all these in mind, i think it add on to the fear of me getting married coz nothing is lasting. even married guys tried to get a taste of bite outside. i guess i need to change my way of approaching ppl. stop alll nosense....