我是不是该安静的走开，还是该勇敢的留下来
Friday, June 29, 2007
yes, we knew each other online and it sparks off pretty fast. within a week we are together as an item. he met up with my best friend jocelyn and her comment is pretty good..
he meet up with my parents and my mum says other than a little bad habit with is not really obvious, she still can accpet him
he met up with my god-sister and the comment is, he is pretty nice
he meet up with missy, serendipity, mark, itchybackside, big cat, only missy said he is unfriendly.
i m seriously thinking of giving up. i know i cant fight coz
1) ppl so long with him, sure understand him more that me
2) i can feel my bf still likes her
3) her persense have never left me
4) i feel her somewhere
5) i broke down and cry
6) i m a cry baby who cannot take it
7) she can give up everything for him which i cant
8) she will love him more than he do
But
1) my bf once promise me that he wun go back to her
2) my bf promise that i m so much better than her
3) he promise me that he loves me...
i do love him....he given me TLC which i wanted, the only barrier we are having is my smoking. ya..start laughing, that is a very far off thing...this doesnt mean i will not quit. i have seen friends quit becoz of bf and end up smoke even more after break up. otherwise, smoke at bf back. told him that she quit but keep puffing when out with friends. find reasons not to go out with bf etc....i hate acting coz i have to do it in office everyday. i dun wanna act in front of my bf as well.
but to be frank, ya..true, one day i will have to quit. but actualy i have been cutting down coz i cant get any cigarette anywhere... have to budget a bit, pub and ktv no longer welcome smoker..guess i will cut down ba. but not for him...
i m a easliy jealous women which i think everyone does.. esp when you are serious about it. i do have a few puppy love and guess what, i break off with them becoz i wanna smoke. this doesnt apply now, prehaps i m more easliy sad now. i m no longer strong. i need more TLC... *crying*
this doesnt mean that i give up smoking becoz of him. I give up becoz i feel i should do.
how would one feel if another guy/ger comes along and tell your partner that 'i would do anything as long as you are back with me'
Ans: One will feel sad...one will cry...one will....but one will not let another suffer...another be sad...another cry... one will rather...
Labels: need TLC
Confusion
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Feeling for her now is mixture...
She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
Is he Mr. Right?
Is he Mr. Right? Or not quite?
Your Results
You Scored: 8/10
What your score means:
Congrats! You've found a real sweetheart whom you can trust, love and feel safe with. But you also realize that, alas, real life relationships aren't as simple as happily-ever-after fairy tales, and it takes lots of communication, trust, compromise and learning about each other to keep the love and passion going strong. Keep communicating, be encouraging and never take each other for granted. You look like you're made for each other – go for it!
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I took the test from shoppinglifestyle earlier on. well..how could one define Mr right? to me, as long as he could give me a shlter, andore me, give me TLC, the rest i really can dun care.
here is a story:
There is this sad ger who have told her bf that:' i dun think your ex is the past tense yet' the guy reply: ' i will prove it to you' The very next day, she dream that she caught her bf with the ex gf and she left even without fighting. but she tot, that is just a dream. such things should not happen...... the ex should be in the past tense...she should...
Indeed, the ex gf actually appear to be present tense..she suddenly feel uncertian about the words. she have not brought this up.. no doubt this guy actually show her watever it is, but still, it doesnt really make her heart peaceful. however, this doesnt mean that the guy should hide anything from her. She trust that he will not betray her.
She is depress, entangled, upset, frustrated. she feels that she should just hide somewhere, ignore everyone...ignore everybody. dun talk to anyone, dun say anything. she felt she is even more lost. What should she do?
HARDEST THINGS IN LOVE
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
by cousin's blog.
1. flashing your smile to someone u don't want to see. -
2. bringing back the feeling u've learned to forget.
3. showing that u care.
4. finding a way to mend a broken heart.
5. learning that u've been used by someone u truly love.
6. saying "i love you" when you mean it and when you don't.
7. letting go of a person u've just learned to love.
8. realizing that u love somebody u've just taken for granted.
9. realizing that u love the person u've just broken up with.
10. waiting for promises you know he'll never keep.
11. saving ur love for someone who loves somebody else.
12. reminiscing the good times u shared together.
13. shielding ur heart to love somebody.
14. trying to hide what u really feel.
15. having a commitment with someone that u know would not last.
16. trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from ur eyes.
17. sharing the one u love with someone else.
18. loving a person too much.
19. giving up someone u never thought of giving up.
20. falling in love for the first time.
21. loving someone you haven't seen.
22. having the right love at the wrong time.
23. exerting effort to make the relationship last or work.
24. not being appreciated when u know u've given ur best.
25. taking the risk to fall in love again.
26. hiding ur relationship from someone else.
27. controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend
28. choosing between 2 persons whom u really love.
29. finding out that u can never have the person u just let go off.
30. seeing the person u love with someone else
When smoking become a sinner this time
Sunday, June 24, 2007
hai....everyone in the almost entire world...as in my friends world knows i m a somker and the most frequent somker some more...if i ever left with 11.20 and without cigarette and i am hungry..i would rather go buy cigarette than to eat....
**************out to salon*******************************
my bf called me....and i told him that i m little piss off with him and he knows why...no doubt he apologies but still...hai..dunno what to say la...just c how it goes. cfm one day sure quarrel very jia lat one....
anyway.. i m having sunburn coz we went to east coast to suntan yesterday... :)
actually other than keep nagging at my about smoking, basically he is ok...but too bad...i m a smoker and he will neevr understand....
Aint in a mood...
Saturday, June 23, 2007
me with lilies
lilies by my coll
and they are.....
by my sister which i just got it today....
From gracey alone.... i know the price is at $80.00
Last one from wendy + cat
This year pressie only from wendy, cat, my sister and grace
Guess this year i dun have to grab any pressie anymore since all of their bday is over..hehe
Or is there anyone who have my pressie ready but have not give to me? i know jasmine and her god-brother niah..
Last but not least..... i nearly forgot and thanks for reminding me....
by huirong..hehe...her bday coming soon...end of the year... :)
Labels: bday
new started relationship
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
o ya,...my bf also born in the year as dog.. :) anyway...both of them started with the topic and for dunno what reason, my best friend suggest that we should go for a short trip prehaps next year.
o...i hope my previous entry that i have pen down did not scare off some of you. As usual, office policaitians are too complicated and all you need to do if just endure...but Mon is really a hard day for me.
o ya..pictures should be in by tommorrow.
what can be more worst when u are wrong by someone
Monday, June 18, 2007
getting to another relationship?
I will be posting my bday pressie soon and guess what, i really love this year pressiessss..... got lilies from coll, table lamp + shower foam from wendy and a really very beautiful and classic bag from grace.... i love it!!!~~~~~
O ya...my title..as you know, my previous relationship ended on 19 May and for ppl who keep wanting to know how come i din blog about my relationship for past one year is becoz someone din wan me to and if i do, eh...something will happen. so to aviod, i never wanted to blog relationship. now since it have ended, for those who wonder y and the reason is simple as we both have problems from the beginning so rather than draging, i decided to give up.
Now there is this guy who is pretty nice to me..as usual, those who is wooing is of coz sweet and nice. i brought him to my mum for approval and i guess i should as for results tonite. he is really sweet and i hope that this time round, it is not wrong.
at least he is willing to be polish and learn from mistake. i think i m...falling in love once agian. you may think that y i can get to relationship so fast, but to be frank, i have give up on previous one completely already
Things arent really great in the office these days.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
things happen during exam period
Saturday, June 09, 2007
for those who know....ya my idea partner:
young and promising
convincing
may not be rich, but at least TLC
able to at least get my a shelter even w/o transport
able to get well with my family
and the candidate sitting beside me yesterday looks like one of them. haha.. ops..i knw..i m suppose to take exam and not look at other guys. hehe... anyway...one more to go on mon. hopefully those i spotted is out
o ya.....weird these days..my sister, sarah msg me on fri asking me where m i going to nite which i m haviung exams these period and she hardly ask me out. JL too but..his msg is always the same evrytime... 'later go where...tonite go where ...' nothing special... ops..dunnno if he will kill me. haha..Another one, my best friend, jocelyn suddenly ask me out on fri as well which i told her next week then i can make it. this morning, another sister, Kelly msn me too asking me where n i heading tonite. i know that something happen and i need to be there...lets c if i can complete my studies today and join her later on.
At times i do wonder anyone reads my entry. seems no one visit but when i meet up with them, they seems to know my content of my blog and able to catch up on what i m thinking. should i place a visit counter here? need help from my dear cousin again.... haha.....
few movies i wanna catch
Fantastic four - i din watch the part one, but part 2 seems interesting *already watching with someone*
Ocean 13 - i got 11 and 12 for temp rent...jolin is on top of the list....who else.. and anyone wanna catch with me?
transformer - dun really wanna catch but seems interesting after watching the trail - someone asked me but dunno he cfm or not...anyone wanna catch with me?
havent meet up with gracey for my pressie...hehe....so excited. will post up the pressie entry once i got all the pressie at home...
PS: i m using one of my bday present to study now. thanks to wendy....
Bintan update*
me, wendy...
who else please RSVP k?
Labels: fan arh
the wedding
Friday, June 08, 2007
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19087871/
well....wedding is a happy thing and wedding schedule as belows
July , my engineer (my company)
Oct, sale manager (my compnay)
Oct, account manager (my company)
Nov, my god-sister
Jan 2008, poopshit
looks scary aint they? Wedding is a happy thing, however, there is one particular invitation which i just got it last week. at first, he said to me that:
' i have write the invitation card but dunno should i give to u'
me: ?? give la....
him: dunno should i or not...
me: swee...friend...u happy can liao
Few days later, he really give me the wedding invitation card. staring at the card, my mind is even more blank. well...for those who know who's wedding card it is, then nvm...for those who dun, dun rub into it, dun ask me....dun ask anyone....
but to be frank, i indeed feel a little sad and in a fixed position of to go or not to. hassle but .... i really wanna c who is she... i havent decide yet anyway....dun ask me...coz i dun ahve an answer.
o ya...i watch a show and the female actress says:
*there is a relationship in this world which both parties can have their own life, own family, buit still, their relationship exist* - guess whats that....
Bintan update:
me, wendy
-who else please cfm k?
wendy, state the requirement..... and ps: dun sea sick hor...
Labels: small talks
3D2N Nirwana Bintan per person S$268
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
** Return Ferry Ticket + Seaport Taxes
** 02 ways land transfer from jetty - hotel - jetty
** 02 nights stay with daily breakfast for 2A
how is it?
http://www.nirwanagardens.com/default.aspx
dates to be confirm as 9 Aug to 11 Aug 2007.
Please RSVP by 30 June 2007 as it is a holiday peak season.
Joanne - No sea sick. need smoker room. deep sleeper. particular in toilet hygenic.
ppl who are goign, please let me know your requirement so that we can have a enjoyable trip. :)
Hope that everyone can think about it and RSVP k? i need a breather...think all of you do too.
Cat's house warming...
Monday, June 04, 2007
well...i just read my cousin-in-law blog and realise the catching thingy is for real.the letter was mail to the person..scary isnt it?
did i mention i went to Cat's house warming and meet my little hubby? :D
Wendy, Eva, Paris and me...
my darling hubby (who is goign to divorce me with immediate effect becoz i m older) :(
the house warming is pretty good. not becoz of unlimted free flow of red wine + vodka + black label... got to meet up with eva which i think i have seen her for months. just change her job, her bf...haha..good to hear that she had a good job...i think is pretty good...
As for Cat, as promise, i will meet up with her after my exam below her house that party world for a sing on fri... :)
havent really catch up with good old frens for so long. i miss them....this apply to kelly and melvin as well.... think after this exam, i m resting a while and catch up soemthing that i have lost all along. esp my best friend jocelyn. i seriously havent seen her since CNY
O ya...did i mention that i feel more fufiling after joining the Dragonboat? i can say my life havent been such in team before. they dun blam e each other. no quarrels. everyone is nice nad friendly and the only thing is i have to hide to smoke.. >.< href="http://tinypic.com/" target="_blank">
race @bedok reservior
Sunday, June 03, 2007
i love the jersy... :)
o well....today is the finals and punggol north CC lost by merley less than a sec. only 31 milli-sec... wasted huh. anyway, good experince and we are goign to have a break for a week and thereafter, they will organise a BBQ with out MP and she will give out the medals to us.
Guess what...they askign me to just the 4KM walk...should i go?
how beautiful is beautiful
1) healthy long hair or stylish short hair
2) may not be slim
3) dress on th clothes they should be
4) remind the make up you should be on, dun wear werid colour in the morning as it seems even worst
5) big eyes
6) tiny lips with a shape which makes them feel seductive
7) nice plesant smile.
Just read HB blog and thanks to her who post all the miss universe picture.i dun really liek the way they are being dress up. prehaps too much make up that disgust me off.
how about your list to be name a pretty?
my bday
Saturday, June 02, 2007
i will upload the pressie pic soon. i din really had a celebration actually. but i thank those who actually came for a mini gathering for my bday.....
Pics...
dragon boat
