Monday, July 31, 2006
How would you feel when you throw a surpise party, organize everything, nearly fail and end up become a sad brithday? the perosn who put up all these is feelign like shit.
i think a lot of ppl is waiting for my entry but i am gogin to blog something about fri weather you al like it or not, everyone is on their hot temper now. but i would liek to put this as the first question. how would you feel when your best freind dun let you go home with your boyfriend? yes, i have name Tommy as my boyfriend and i think he do deserve a chance. i guess this sentence can offical explain my angriness when my best friend boyfriend refuse to let him go home with me. I wanted to tell all of you but i tot you guys will knw it coz he is standing beside me the whole nite protecting me. and little that i dunno that all of you din realise. Anyway, i admit i did rasie my voice slightly on Jiayan which i feel very after that. i apologies to her in front of Jolin and Hong rong le. i seriously feel very bad but i do have a reason but i din say on the spot. i should have tell yan stright that Tommy is my bf and i m goign home with him. But i dunno y i din. And lookign at Guan who is so furious with yan or rather, the target should be me but now yan. I dunno why he vent all his anger on Yan which till now, i am quite angry about it.
Also, for ppl who are blaming me that cause them to quarrel, ya...i am sorry that i make them quarrel but i will talk to them myself. dun worry. if you want to ignore me in any way, i can'r do anything about it as its up to individual. Is not that i am not treating you as frens or buddy, rather, i cant change a person thinking. Still everyone of you is liek my sister to me, i teasure everyone of you, whoever is reading the blog (if i knw you read).
And for ppl, who add in more wood on the fire, add in more ingidents in the soup, i know who you are and whoever you are, for god sake, if you wanna spread around, i cant stop you and if you are trying to making my best fren bf beat Tommy, i guess you have made it coz he have already fallen to the trap. But i do believe, he will be billiant enough to climb up from there, so, for al the troublemakers, keep your finger cross coz i dun believe he will trust you all more than me. ?
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Been working for 1 year plus and this is the very very first time, someone send me to work. He send me to work today. He walk over my place this morning to pass me breakfast. :)
I know that he is having reservist(police) at the moment. he is on work 2 day off 2 day basis. So today he is off and he send breakfast to me. He told me that he is goign hougang so he took the same bus as me. When the bus reach hougang, i ask him why havent drop ye, he smile and keep quiet. Then i realise that he is goign to send me to work. For the first time, soemone actually willing to take me to work...
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
and i a failure to make a day for ppl? i just hope that ppl around me o be happy. m i a failure? Or rather, everyone dun wan me to have hardship and doesnt want to burden me? or is it that they just dun wan me to help them?
Guys are weridest ceature in the world, when you are good to them, they feel u are dumb, when you are bad to them, they say you have attiude problem. crazy guys around sia.
Anyway, i feel that time is not enough and ppl keep wanting to meet me. when i dun reply sms, they keep sending. when i reply, they they i hang up and sell. what the fuck sia...crazy guys....
yikes.....
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
was late this morning.haha...9.30 then reach office. actually i woke up at 7.20, but my bum refuse to wake up with me, so i play along and fell asleep. woke up at 8.30, simply jump up and rush to the toilet for a bath.
still...i m very tired now...hai...was at my cousin shop last nite helping JY to fix her hp. then was chatting with him. realise that we have all grow up and he was sharing with me the fun of goign batam. package kind of thingy......hai..y guys are all liek that de. just warn him to be careful of the virus thingy.
Sch tommorrow simply more me even more moody...arggggg.......
Monday, July 17, 2006
how many of you can remember i have a ex call terence? ya...that mad man. suddenly, i dream of him last nite. i dunno y suddenly i have a bad feeling thta he is coming back. i am a bit chicken out by him.
he is not mad but insane. the last heard was he is running away from debts. he is the one who dun let me work when i was supporting myself that time. I am poor, so was he, and two of us din work but everyday spend the salary that he got from SAF. all it was enough was for the cigarette only. i am still supporting my own hp but his waas his mum who helped him. i was dumb to be with him for 2 damn fucking years. used up all my savings....dumb huh...
Someone asked me, are you someone who is very good to bf one? i smile without an answer. i cant give any answers to myself too. i m a very simple ger loking for just someone who andore me, love me, concern about me. And i guess, the person is here...i intend to give him a chance...what suggestions? hopefully, not negative. but i knw you gers will support me coz i knw all of u love me...
Monday, July 10, 2006
i tot i forgetten him, but i havent. i tot i have walk out of the picture, but how come i still din
but
someone is loving me
someone andore me
someone treating me like a princess
Thursday, July 06, 2006
who will ever wait until 11pm where i finish school and accompany for dinner where he finish at 7. waited for me at my place just to accomapny me for dinner as he is worry that i will skip my dinner?
who will walk 2 bus stop away and over a flyover just to accompany me to wait for bus and pass me the bread before boardign the bus? end up late for work?
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
hai....sian...now lunch is no longer a break awya from my work. nb..cannot smoke..even smoking area only have 3 - 4 tables. then how i relax sia?eat in office better, can go staircase smoke. eat outside still must wait for all my collauge eat finish the while walkign back then can smoke. nei....sibei sian lei.
School starts today. Hong rong goign to pick me up from here then drive me to the school and have dinner before school starts later. kind of good life sia...from the 1st day i go c the sch until reg then shc start first day, i never take bus there yet lei. all have been ppl sending me there then drive me home. sibei spoilt kid hor. bleah..
But fri for sure have to take bus..unless any kidn soul wanna be my driver? haha...
hai...me blur until my salary been in my office since 30 June until yesterday then i went ot bank in. now super poor..anyone wanna give me spare cash? hah
Monday, July 03, 2006
yo ppl i m back...soem already rec my reply...the min i got back, i have been busy smsing everyone. Sorry for those who are worried for me. Sorry to those who are angry...but as mention earlier, i make sure i m back on mon for sure. no worry ok?
Well.....lots of reflections done and i realise there are little beautiful things aroudnthe whole world that city ppl might have missed it. been spending dyas at the beach, listening to the waves...calming myself and of coz...self branin washing. today i m back, feeling more than fresh. if fact, i m more lighter and narrow my heart.
For JY, i m sorry that i din let u knw beforehand and make u worry. i guess u r the first to read my blog and knw that i have left a while. and same goes for the others who keep calling me over these two days. and not forgetting the smses that all of you have send...and of coz...some for blaming me for leaving and wanted me to explain.
Well...as mention earlier, dun blame anyone. but let the past be the past. i am more lighter now by learnign not to grab so hard. learn to let go of things and that will make me feel happier. its not that i am heartless rather i have a lighter heart. i guess the trip make me grow up a little but relaising how happy i am to have a group of frens who loves me more than anyone else.
and not forgetting...i m still trying to make JY not angry with me lei... :(
o ya...i will start blogging...coz i have recover..and in fact...better...Goals in life now is only work and studies..nothing else but to get ACCA in 3 years time coz i dun wanna drag for 10 years....