Saturday, May 29, 2004
well...lets say about my bday....i spend a nice bday eve with roy(erm...i dunno what relationship also)he came to my office with a bunch of 21 pink roses...i was so shock...i never thought of it....it was a beautiful n nice bunch...he brought mi a hello kitty thermos as wel..:P i like kitties...heehee....i think he spend 80 on the flowers n 30++ on the flask.....n we took a bus to bugis to eat steamboat which i told him few mths ago that i wan to eat....then we wnet ms club 3 cheong...so long nv listen techno liao...haha....i dunno y...y must we break already then he start to fufil whatever i wanted to do in the past?y cant he do it last time?y must wait till now.......anyway...i think my whole bday spend him 200++ coz he also brought a forever freinds bear with golden key which cannot b found in singapore. i got it today n he done some deco on it...its more beautiful coz its not plain....actually i m already touch.,...i thought of going back to him...but someone tell mi to consider seriously...he may b nice at this moment coz is my bday...give him few more weeks n c...but roy told mi b4 he will not go after a gal more than 3 wks...n the someone say, "if he is sincer, 3 yrs also will woo" i find this pharse is very true...can he stand so long??????anyway...thats all for him..i knw he will read it once in a while....i went devils last nite....suppose to go ktv...but kelly din call m i..so i dun bother...I din saw pau..so i msg him..he ask mi if i there then he come work..haha....funny rite?anyway...i meet him n he say he will soon b out of sg..so sad...hopw he can make up his mind to c if he wan go UK find his parents or go back his country..anyway..all the best to him.
Roy msg mi n say if i drunk, he will come fetch me go home.......haiz..i really more n more confuse with my feelings...i think like what the someone say..give everyone a chance to test their love for mi...i think i will let them wait for mi for 3 mths..then go ahead with the guy who is really true n sincer n nv to change my mind.....hm......
anyway...i have a nice n beatiful 21st bday..thanks every1
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
i meet up with kelly n went to look for job...haiz.....so diffcult find job..i have send a few resume already. i really hope to change my job soon
have to call david soon. to ask him abot the Sipmm thing...really hope to study soon......
just hope to forget everything soon. i also dunno what i wan now. just feeling like a blur stupid cat walking aimlessly. just leave me alone everyone...i will b fine.
thanks whoever give mi support...
Sunday, May 16, 2004
anyway, u have seen all the secert. i admit, i did that. but i m sorry
i told u 10mths ago when we start dating, i m a easy drift apart person. it all happen when we 1st break.when u ask mi not to follow u n u wan all the time with ur fren. u think i not sad meh. i trying to cover all my unhappiness. u always treat it as nthing happen.i cant.i knw this day will come when i will drift apart agian. agian n agian. i never two timer.thats all.
all i can say now is i still love u.it do stil hurts when u say all that last nite. n pls, nv ever threten to go my place n wait for mi. u will make mi feel disgusted.
whatever it is,all the best to u forever. i dunno how much u think i m a bitch to u...how cheap i m.wheather u treat mi as a fren is another story. just take care n get ur license soon. i knw u hate learning it n hope my bday will bring u luck.
Friday, May 14, 2004
sunny morning....actually i dunno what should i write also. well...office is so busy these few days. from mon till wed...haha...lucky thurs nite my boss fly to sydeny to attend her bro grad...so i was free for few days....
hm......wnet off early from work to accompany my bf watch moive....hm....dear, i know u have been checking out here on how i feel n everything...i knw its kind of diffcult to talk face to face.....i really dunno how to face u.
as u knw..as u can c.....as how u feel...yes, i admit, i no longer love u as much as last time. i knw u name it as grave mistake that you broke off with mi twice n i admit, its becoz of the 2nd break up, i told myself...i must stop loving u immediately. I DID!!n now, i need to love u back..i find that its so diffcult. i still rem the eyes u stare into mine n say :"i dun love u anymore...lets break" maybe thats the cause of barrier that i cant love u back so easily.dun ask mi what i wan coz mi myself also duno...i knw u r stress in work n love...i dun wan mi to b a stress to u. i dun wan u to give way so easliy. no matter what is the result at the end of the mth....i just wanna tell u, we can always b frens..............
Sunday, May 09, 2004
sianz...sick...tired.....idiot.....i really getting tired...argz...
dear, i think we need some time to think properly....i just feel that if we carry on like this..it is wasting both of our time....u dunno what i wan n i dun understand wat u wan.
we havent been happy anymore...nt anymore........argz...i dunno lah.....not i dun wan tok things out.....i dunno how to tok....so sick...tired.....
Monday, May 03, 2004
broke...damn fucking broke...poor...very very poor.......argz.....sianz..where to earn more money????bday coming.....no money celebrate..i think i really need borrow money agian liao..no choice. aug wan study...but i think i changing my mind...i thinking of joining next yr feb intake...i m too tight already. i cannot take it anymore......poor...poor........
went to devils both fri n sat...sianz....a bit sick of there liao...everytiem go there i getting more n more poor liao loh...i knw i dun have to worry about drink..coz i knw pau will treat mi rite???he like a big bro to mi...always take care of mi when i n there...scare i kana kidnapped huh?heehee
fri is a standard that all of us will go...its seems a bit funny that i went on sat rite?be coz of jasmine lah....she lah..wanna c vincent...heehee...i hoep when she read this, she will not jump one mi lah hor...heehee....
grace ar grace....dunno what to say about it..but all i can say is, the feeling is urs is urs........even if we say max is a good guy, should wait for him...but if u fell in love with another guy, its all becoz of feeling....5yrs...if 5yrs later, he dun get married with u how?left there old n hag?i knw i no rite to say u,coz mi also the same.
pau, exam finish liao...can wrk hard hard...i knw u just shift house need more money now....but dun forget, if u have sub paper then must do well liao ok?
my dearest roy,i knw u nt frequently read my blog, but just in case u read this, no matter when it is, i ust wanna tell u, i have been always looking for a chance to talk to u. but it seems that i din have a chance at all always. i really hope to discuss about the marridge thing with you..you should knw what i refering to if u always listen to what i say. bring it up to talk, when u decide to talk about that.