Monday, April 26, 2004
almost lunch time...uncle still never come ask mi what to eat...siao loh..have to go out myself liao...sianz...hm.....went to devils on fri...i suppose dun wan go one....but, my fren says he nv go b4...so bing him in loh....i really hate the old uncle...c ppl only touch here n there...arg..cannot stand it....
Grace, sorry that i din meet u last sat....i c the newspaper for taking life n its nt screening at the place. thats y i call off the meeting n meet my bf n accompany him to watch his fren race. no angry loh..i m really sry that u called off another appt bcoz of mi. this fri dinner will b a compesnate to u k?haiz..i went to angel reborn that nite....hm...maybe i go too much devils liao..the techno a bit funny to mi.but nvm...i still have some techno cells in mi....hahahah...hope you no more angry with mi k?i miss u very much too...hope to c u soon....
hm...i knw someone will peep at my blog somethings n keep asking mi why i nv write about him..everytime onli grace.....hm....diff k...i knw grace damn f***ing long time...she is like a sis to mi. k lah....just wanna tell u study hard for you exam k?must pass loh...bo u very jialat one loh.....all the best to u anyway....
haiz....damn tired...jasmine jio mi go devils today..i m still thinking shall i go or nt...sibei sian leh..tommorrow still must wrk...sianz ar...boss come back...everything all no freedom liao.......argzzzzzzzzz..........
hope to log in soon.....
Friday, April 23, 2004
shit...i have written at 11 plus just now, but the fucking thing hang...fuck man. hm...havent write blog for some time already.where should i start???
well, someone i would like to thank..but i know she dun play internet one. but,deep down in my heart, i always like to thank her. Jocelyn is always like a sis to mi. she tok to mi every once a mth. she advice mi, if i ever nee dto let go of my bf, do it and she will stand by mi. i also know that my bf really treating mi not good. but sometimes, he is still sweet. what should i do? till now i still din get a chance to talk to him. i really wish to settle things with him before my bday. i dun wan anymore nightmare.
Grace, i know you are a nice fren as well...thanks for standing by my side when i need advice. i know i shouldnt have patch up with him when he hurt mi not only once. bt do u remember alvin? if he isnt that heartless i think by now i still havent wake up. if my bf now heartless with mi, i think i will just let go easily. is either he make mi completely dun love hm anymore if not, i will nv try to let go. do u know y? i have let go a very sweet relationship b4. i regerted. so i will not let my relationship now to b easliy let go. coz i believe that there another chance. its my chioce to believe.
i know i may be insane or childish..but thats how i feel. meanwhile, i will still b a happy-go-lucky gal.
wish mi all the best my friends.
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
The difference is, what happens afterward? When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and then contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.
If you decide to love the person, even with his faults, that's not chance. That's choice. When you choose to be with a person no matter what, that's choice. Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.
Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that last is truly a choice. A choice that we make.
Regarding soulmates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this--"Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen." I do believe that soulmates do exist. That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not. We may meet our soulmates by chance, but loving and staying with our soulmate is still a choice we have to make. =)
Monday, April 12, 2004
hm...damn f***ing hot day...Din slp well last nite leh.....too hot...so warm...force mi on air con...quite a busy day...shit..my basic thoery this thurs..i havent even bother to study yet..then i going interview on wed or thurs..i hope its wed..so that i can go for it...no chioce...i need money ASAP..no chioce loh...
Have been drinking since last thursday...like that i dying soon liao...
actuallt thing much to write.......
thats all..
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Hm...dunno what my bf want leh...as we are toking in msn last nite, i invite my bro to the conversation. My bro ask him intro, he intro as 25/m/single but not available leh...when my bro ask him izzit my sis bf..he say ya leh...wha pengz...i really dunno what to say leh...knn..so confusing....I ask him to prove to mi that he love mi...he dunno how to leh...wha lao...i dunno what to do now...m i in a relationship or not i also not sure..knn....damn sianz....ARG>.........
Grace, u havent update ur ur blog..think u too busy to go internet cafe..wrk hard..so tht u can buy ur PC soon.......
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
My bf dun wan mi le...he break with mi monday nite. i m so damn fucking sad. i gave him back all his things. including the flowers he gave to mi on V day. but he tell mi in msn last nite that he is sorry. he dun ment to. just that he think of cannot give mi happiness in future then he break with mi. i have never ask for all these..i have leg n hands,i can survive on my own. he ask for patch. but, can he think it clearly 1st? i dun wanna patch in a harsh. i m a human, not toy. happy want back not happy throw away.it really hurts...really hurts a lot.
i also dunno what i should do. wait n see then.
grace, i know u r worry for mi..dun worry, i will b fine. hows ur job?i think u like it very much.but i can feel that u r tired. but dun worry, ur efforts will pay u good.
aaron, good luck for your bike session later.
good luck to myself
Monday, April 05, 2004